Today the only reason I don't just throw in the towel and quit the publishing biz and pay back the money I owe and call it quits, is because I've been given up on before... and I've failed at things before and quit things before and gotten fed up, and angry, and despondent... and too many are watching and seeing if the "loser" is going to lose yet again, as they all predicted.
It's my pride that keeps me going now. And nothing else.
Why is SA so blasted corrupt, on all levels???